[00:00.000] 作词 : 克里斯托戴[00:01.000] 作曲 : 克里斯托戴[00:02.000] 编曲 : 克里斯托戴[00:03.837]I boarded the plane at Gate 19[00:07.956]with a half‑packed bag[00:10.604]and a peach‑colored lie[00:13.895]You said, “Call me when you land,”[00:19.646]but my phone died around Albuquerque[00:24.469]— or maybe it just never rang[00:28.005]I watched a woman read Slouching Towards Bethlehem[00:33.894]in the window seat beside me[00:37.533]and thought Joan Didion would’ve hated[00:41.510]how I let you touch me[00:44.934]and called it forgiveness[00:50.644]Outside the window, clouds lay flat like bones[00:56.182]The engine sounded like your voice[00:59.934]explaining softness[01:02.357]like if it were borrowed on a deadline[01:07.517]The screen said we were flying west[01:11.342]but it felt more like falling—[01:15.205]inward, toward a version of me[01:20.404]you didn't believed in anyway[01:26.647]I didn’t cry[01:30.703]but I bit my lip so hard[01:34.565]I tasted every time[01:38.845]you almost loved me[01:48.485]I wrote a poem in the Notes app[01:52.096]called Good Girls Bleed First[01:55.221]and I fell asleep halfway through—[01:59.480]like I do with most things now[02:04.846]The flight attendant asked[02:07.759]if I wanted something sweet[02:11.319]and I said, “Not anymore.”[02:15.942]She smiled anyway[02:18.158]Like she’d heard that kind of answer before[02:26.789]And I—[02:27.814]I never got to land[02:30.898]And I—[02:31.538]I never meant to stay[02:34.021]And I—[02:35.896]I never said goodbye[02:38.231]but you heard it anyway[02:42.615]I think I landed in San Francisco[02:46.864]or maybe I’m still up here[02:49.815]somewhere between knowing better[02:55.990]and leaving anyway[03:01.798]You’re the tide…[03:08.853]but I’m already myth.