Hello, Misery - JayteKz.mp3

[00:00.000] 作词 : Joel Christian Serrano
[00:00.500] 作曲 : Joel Christian Serrano
[00:01.000]Nuh nuh nuh nah nah nuh nuh nah nuh
[00:05.000]Yo what
[00:06.000]Oh f**k
[00:07.000]Okay
[00:08.000]We're recording? Okay okay okay
[00:09.000] Um, what's up guys
[00:11.000]My name is JayteKz.
[00:14.000]uhhh,I make music.
[00:16.000]I'm f**king emotional and Just listen to some of my story, f**k it
[00:22.000]I been thinking lately
[00:23.000] what I find really man for this,I know this path I'm on is filled with greed and treacherous.
[00:28.000]A pessimist I'm not, but I just been through so much shit.
[00:32.000]It's hard to heal when I been damaged since I was a kid.
[00:34.000]But you don't understand my trials or my tribulations To be fair you never been within my situations.
[00:40.000]I ain't saying I got it worse but it ****ed me up .
[00:42.000]So many scars I've been calling God to touch me up.
[00:45.000] Yeah,And honestly I haven't prayed lately,Haven't slept at all and I just haven't ate lately.
[00:51.000]I been drinking too, just to find a better mood.
[00:54.000]A couple brews always keeps my heart from feeling bruised.
[00:56.000]Haha, get it, or was that too corny I digress, let me get right back into my story.
[01:02.000]A year and six months I was in sobriety I tried to be the very best version I could be .
[01:08.000]But I guess my feelings finally caught up to me Cause now I'm sitting here just buzzing like a bumblebee.
[01:13.000]I know they're judging me and probably think I'm weak minded，But you ain't here while I'm hurting on the brink of dying.
[01:19.000]Yeah I know there's probably no excuse.
[01:22.000]But my present and my past still haven't made a truce.
[01:24.000]I had a poisoned youth stemmed from my poisoned roots.
[01:27.000]So when I blossomed I just had to face my poisoned truth.
[01:31.000]That I lost my innocence way too early on.
[01:33.000]Now that I'm grown up I realize the burden's strong.
[01:36.000]I've been searching long and hard for a sense of purpose.
[01:39.000]I've been searching deep within wav bevond the surface.
[01:42.000]But what I find is always quite disturbing.
[01:44.000]I see my life and death in the process of converging .
[01:47.000]They're conversing with each other getting well acquainted.
[01:50.000] It's no wonder why I feel my soul is often tainted.
[01:53.000]Or maybe I'm just being dramatic，Or maybe things I've been through have truly been traumatic.
[01:58.000]I panic when I think about the things I have no answers to.
[02:01.000]So many questions and nobody seems to have a clue And I don't know who I can trust no more.
[02:07.000]I try to open up and everybody shuts the door.
[02:10.000]The more I try to love, the more I end up feeling worthles.
[02:13.000]I wish reciprocity was something we could purchase.
[02:15.000]But people often take advantage.
[02:18.000]That's why I feel so numb and my compassion slowly vanished.
[02:21.000]I haven't been myself since um, I don't know when.
[02:24.000]Now my heart is cold and it's slowly getting frozen.
[02:27.000]I soak in all my tears when I sit alone at home.
[02:29.000]I let out all my fears and thoughts with these open poems.
[02:33.000]A broken home that's exactly what my heart.
[02:34.000]is A broken soul that's been camping in the darkness.
[02:38.000]Yeah.And if I never see the light again I hope you all can still see the burning light.
[02:43.000]within The fight within has been coming to a subtle end.
[02:46.000]And when it's over I just hope that all my troubles end.
[02:49.000]Yeah，I have no clue what the future holds.
[02:52.000]But if tomorrow never comes know that you've been told.
[02:55.000]All about my pain, sorrows and my misery.
[02:58.000]I told my story I just wish that you were listening.