[00:00.00][00:00.03]It’s dark out, sit in bed I[00:02.81]Feel the sleep tug at my eyes[00:05.42]Still awake this late at night[00:07.89]A day done and nothing to write[00:10.62]Some say it’s difficult to find[00:13.07]And the words, they just stay inside[00:16.28]How about you start at the beginning -[00:18.08]You woke up - go on I’ll listen[00:20.70][00:20.77]Is life like this, pen to paper alone like this?[00:26.24]Is this how they’ll see me when I’m gone?[00:30.39]Then should I dismiss my real thoughts to protect my kids[00:36.45]Should I let them see my weaknesses[00:39.54]How will the remember me when I’m gone?[00:43.40][00:47.09]Should I let them see my weaknesses[00:50.21]How will the remember me when I’m[00:53.20][01:01.80]So I record the same[01:04.66]The wild and mundane[01:07.51]Cause I’m a whole person like they’ll be too[01:12.51]I’ll tell the truth - when I was wrong[01:17.95]And what I sacrificed to be strong[01:23.30]I’ll write every day, humming away[01:28.84]Even make it a habit that I don’t lose[01:33.91]Cause I look back too with a warmer heart[01:39.50]At the younger girl I once was[01:46.25][01:47.07]My journal’s like a link book to my brain[01:53.75]So reach out to it, cross the gate[01:57.77]Cause everything I am is safe here in my mind[02:07.95]Someone told me that I couldn’t be myself[02:13.58]I would be me even more through my doubts[02:21.39][02:31.86]You’ll get a grip of my soul as you read on[02:37.54]Is it harder to love me now, that you can arrange all my flaws[02:42.96]Categories, time dates and cause[02:45.53]Get about halfway and pause[02:48.31]It’s not worth it there are so many more[02:51.57][02:51.60]I’ve been[02:52.86]Greedy and selfish and borderline reckless[02:55.51]I mostly broke promises up with myself when[02:58.16]I told myself til I could feel no more breath[03:00.62]I’d be better than this, I’d be better than this[03:03.42]I’ve only managed to disappoint myself[03:05.90]No one knows so they can’t force me to look for help[03:08.56]It’s a cycle I’ve repeated and know so well[03:11.35]But it’s secret, can you keep it?[03:13.95][03:14.59]It’s dark out, sit in bed I[03:17.44]Feel the sleep tug at my eyes[03:20.11]Still awake this late at night[03:22.66]A day done and nothing to write[03:25.35]Some say it’s difficult to find[03:27.85]And the words, they just stay inside[03:30.72]How about you start at the beginning -[03:32.82]You woke up - go on I’ll listen[03:35.64]