[00:00.000] 作词 : carter c/charlie coded oxygen banyard/Kevin McCune[00:01.000] 作曲 : carter c/charlie coded oxygen banyard/Kevin McCune[00:07.334] Miss a train, board a train, watch someone die[00:10.828] Never home, in my dorm, I’d rather be be up north[00:21.116] I’m so scared to be alone, and I have no friends[00:24.425] And I wanna kill myself because of my meds (I hate myself)[00:33.729][00:41.691] I haven’t gone to class in weeks and I spend all my money on flixbus tickets[00:48.558] I want to transfer schools[00:55.148] I take the train every other day, I’m so ****ing tired and I never ever wanna wake up[01:03.529][01:06.457] (...So what's my routine?)[01:08.982] Shave my chest every day, plus my arms and legs[01:12.495] Try to not skip a meal but I’ll forget again[01:22.807] Missing friends who treated me like shit[01:26.062] I feel like Millie would call my life a bit (in the most recent yard podcast episode)[01:36.544][01:36.942] I feel trapped inside portland’s finest suicide goldmine[01:45.909] I’m failing everybody, even me[01:50.263] I can’t get out of bed, in a hellscape made in my image[01:57.242] And I guess, in river’s too[02:01.076][02:03.960] I haven’t gone to class in weeks and I spend all my money on flixbus tickets[02:10.765] I want to transfer schools[02:17.370] I take the train every other day, I’m so ****ing tired and I never ever wanna wake up[02:31.878] I feel trapped inside portland’s finest suicide goldmine[02:40.490] I’m failing everybody, even me[02:45.065] I can’t get out of bed, in a hellscape made in my image[02:51.995] And I guess, I’m giving up today