Bad Feelings ;^( - Kara's Walk Home.mp3

[00:57.433]Lie down in the woods where you cried for the first time
[01:01.080]Reading something you could love
[01:04.121]For the rest of your life as you leaf through the pages
[01:08.502]And lie down in the bed where you stared at the ceiling
[01:12.292]Wondering if you believed in God
[01:15.378]Wondering how to perceive the world now without Them
[01:32.654]Dig through the boxes of the books that you left with
[01:36.202]Your parents and you’ll read
[01:39.148]Through lines you underlined and the words in the margins
[01:44.061]And walk around in the city where you lived for the first time
[01:47.769]On your own and you’ll pass
[01:50.651]Familiar places that aren’t yours anymore
[01:55.727]And I don’t want to feel this way but
[02:01.390]I’m jealous every time you say that
[02:07.880]"This whole thing has changed my life"
[02:12.873]But I never had that kind of moment in my life
[02:19.933]And I’m waking up in the same place each day
[02:29.397]And I’ll roll right out, look for some socks and shorts
[02:36.636]And forget it soon enough
[02:53.511]Faint smells, dirt and moisture
[02:57.786]Playing soccer, or catch
[03:05.980]I’m sitting in the front yard
[03:10.256]Waiting for the world to open up
[03:18.324]Paint smells, sight, and textures
[03:22.483]Oily glass from my nose
[03:30.355]I’m standing in the back yard
[03:35.057]Waiting for the world to open up
[03:55.083]I feel dead when I see someone get the job they hoped for
[03:58.726]And I know I wanna be
[04:02.139]Happy for them but it just kills me
[04:06.317]And Rachel says she feels the same when
[04:08.380]People talk about their families, feeling comfortable at home
[04:13.333]So I guess I don't have it that bad
[04:18.160]Spend my life waiting for some email that will
[04:24.281]Change my life for the better
[04:30.383]Go somewhere that will lift me up and
[04:35.818]Over the hurdles placed in front of me
[04:42.692]I go outside, see the same streets that they do
[04:52.050]Squint from the sun like everyone else
[04:58.317]The sun doesn’t care at all
[05:04.584]And I’ve got work but I’ll stay up as late as I can
[05:12.091]Morning still comes and I’m still alive
[05:18.017]Just barely and I can’t wait to go home
[05:23.050]
[06:00.467]"Comparison will kill you!"
[06:01.491]Some business man says as he talks on his phone
[06:03.473]waiting for the 3 million donuts he ordered for him
[06:05.972]and his business meetings that he has every Thursday.
[06:07.858]I've only been working here for 4 months
[06:09.625]but I've already memorized their patterns
[06:12.369]Sandy doesn't want to see anyone smile today.
[06:14.226]Her coworkers tell her about signing up for classes
[06:15.822]that she can't even think about anymore;
[06:17.367]it's been so long since she gave up paying her student loans
[06:19.144]but every once in a while she throws in $20 just for fun
[06:24.844]And Janice pulls out an old diary
[06:26.244]and reads about how angry she was
[06:28.000]that her father made them stay an extra week in New Hampshire in summer, 2003.
[06:30.378]She didn't want to look at the stars but to just go home, she said.
[06:33.333]Tonight she'll stay up late reading Wikipedia entries about Shenmue
[06:35.536]and she won't regret it
[06:37.749]It's better to stay awake until I'm dead tired
[06:39.244]than to be well rested and spend all night staring at the ceiling,
[06:41.718]and besides, it's the only free time I have.
[06:43.785]The only thing I hate is waking up in the morning
[06:45.787]but at least I know that we're still breathing
[07:15.307]And I've been thinking, it's not too foolish
[07:21.286]My heart moves slowly, my legs move slowly
[07:27.743]And I've been thinking, it's not too foolish
[07:33.990]My heart moves slowly, my legs move slowly