[00:00.00] I ain`t even done yet[00:03.36]It`s not , its not easy[00:05.37]It`s not easy[00:07.11]It was`nt supposed to be easy[00:11.46]Wish I could tell you all[00:12.60]The things that I've been battling[00:14.34]Still thinking of my past[00:15.81]I keep it bottled in[00:17.28]I was 15 insecure[00:18.69]Broke and stupid[00:22.53]Mad at myself cause[00:23.91]Am lying to mom[00:25.50]Asked how am doing[00:26.55]And I told her that am fine[00:28.14]Am stuck in the right[00:29.22]Place doing the wrong things[00:30.78]Man am tired of being[00:31.74]Tired of being tired[00:33.18]Thought I knew all[00:34.20]But I don't know shit[00:36.06]Had it all figured[00:37.08]But I couldn't take the heat[00:38.67]If life was a test[00:39.96]Then I'm getting all D's[00:41.46]I'm so closed off[00:42.72]But these verses are the keys[00:44.19]I used to hustle in Lusaka[00:45.54]With a teser in my jeans[00:47.16]They looking at me[00:48.33]"Like you can't have these"[00:49.86]Man I made out the country[00:51.24]And that shit wasn`t easy[00:52.83]If you ever act funny[00:54.00]Then you know we get busy[00:56.82]This is my current state of mind[01:01.08]This is my current state of mind[01:07.32]Post traumatic stress[01:08.34]Disorder got me moving[01:09.57]Different[01:10.32]I was ****ing 16[01:11.55]I saw a dead body[01:13.08]Now am spitting 16s it's[01:14.52]Not a ****img hobby[01:16.23]5th grade I saw a man[01:17.28]Lose his life to a bullet[01:19.02]Blood in my eyes[01:20.46]Sweat down my neck[01:21.57]I've been working so hard[01:23.01]All these people don't see it[01:24.51]By 17 years I working 9 to 6 uh[01:27.45]Waking up at 5[01:28.59]Trying to get me[01:29.31]Out the streets uh[01:30.30]By 18 years mahn[01:31.68]I had own business[01:33.00]By 19 years I took an L I had a loss[01:35.70]But I guess to make it here[01:36.93]You gotta take few losses[01:38.70]And learn a few lessons[01:40.05]That's how life goes