[00:00.489] I never enjoyed the surprise birthday[00:04.432] So naturally I hate the opposite surprise[00:08.836] And you can imagine I'm hurting the worst way[00:12.627] Your family's loss is Heaven's gain, oh that's right[00:16.850][00:17.187] [Chorus][00:17.492] But I, I keep falling down that hole[00:20.717] The one that I can't control[00:22.481] You are gone, send a text you don't respond, so[00:26.497][00:26.733] Not tryna be selfish, no[00:28.551] But can you enter my heart from Heaven[00:31.765] Cuz I got questions[00:33.612][00:33.863] [Verse 2][00:34.085] I won't sit here and call you selfish[00:37.794] But could you tell that you would leave us in Hell? (In Hell)[00:42.043] I can't say you were anyone else's[00:45.550] Cuz life is so cold, it's only saying "oh well"[00:49.510][00:49.782] [Bridge][00:49.982] Is this a joke or better question, then why?[00:53.961] You ain't want us to know, cuz you had anti-pride[00:57.489][00:58.533] Also too much on your mind[01:01.318] Addresses, numbers, times[01:03.076] Your obsession that nobody questioned[01:06.999][01:07.219] It feels like we're all blind cuz we didn't read the sign[01:11.198] 11:11, new star in heaven[01:17.368][01:30.952] Is this a joke or better question, then why?[01:34.792] You ain't want us to know, you kept your plan airtight[01:38.427][01:38.678] (Was it your anti-pride?)[01:45.338] If you were upset, you would never let us see[01:48.704] Guess what? She's hurt[01:50.581] But she would never let you know it (Let you know it)[01:52.769] Never show it, no matter what, she stays smiling[01:55.954][01:56.209] (One minute I'm crying)[02:01.876] No, I'm not upset[02:02.836] You think that this shit is funny?[02:05.011] Laughing out loud, yeah, bet you're rolling over (Rolling over)[02:09.276] Showing God that I'm ugly face crying