Rageless Hope - 99 Neighbors.mp3

[00:20.190]When I was 17, my only dream was cashin' the checks
[00:22.938]Sick of collect calls and withdrawals was a cause and effect
[00:25.447]'Til mom interjects, "Sorry boo, your father's calling you
[00:27.952]To follow up to say he never follows through," what a mess
[00:30.442]Smoke a bowl and say, "What's goin' on?"
[00:32.444]Callin' from a burner phone, I know he goin' through it
[00:34.432]I can tell because his tone is off
[00:36.184]He asks me, "How is college? Prolly get your masters instead of owning your masters
[00:41.636]You gon' waste your knowledge if you don't act fast
[00:42.364]Ungrateful bastard, you need to take action to get back to your classes
[00:44.863]Opportunities pass and everything in moderation and duе time
[00:47.865]You'll do fine"
[00:49.118]He still havin' mood swings off thе moonshine
[00:51.124]I rather pay my dues in music, movies, fashion
[00:53.617]Instead of stolen Buick's and hoopty crashin'
[00:55.364]In fact, I ain't been to church in a minute
[00:57.370]The hourglass been tickin', I been trippin' off the shroomies and acid
[01:00.861]Lackin' the vision, the head on collision with myself though
[01:02.610]And reflecting on all this shit I planned out
[01:04.361]Oh, oh
[01:06.120]You would never hear a seed push through the ground
[01:20.864]I wish I told you I hate you for leaving, but that would mean I used to love you
[01:24.618]How could I give love to a person that only gave me trouble?
[01:27.110]'Course you gave me life and supported me for a stretch
[01:29.375]Even fought for me in the courts when you knew you wasn't the best
[01:31.608]But at best, we'll make amends, and at sixty, you'll be my friend
[01:34.361]'Cause this spot of father's been taken since before my mama's death
[01:36.874]I give portions of me (What's left?) Liquor poured (Like it's a test)
[01:39.365]I am more than what you named me, I'm sorry
[01:41.612]Damor been dead since the day I came to realize that you never got your shit together
[01:45.816]I ***' hope I get my shit together
[01:47.556]Disgusted with the semblance that we share, feelings mixed together
[01:50.507]Life has been a ****, but we still left up in this **** together
[01:52.750]Mom would want it, that's after all the nonsense and violence you put her through
[01:56.444]'Cause she was ********** awesome
[01:57.947]Otherwise, these feelings wouldn't be talking
[01:59.704]I'm trying love and acceptance, so pick it up when I call Vegas
[02:02.959]Oh, oh
[02:06.950]You would never hear a seed push through the ground
[02:12.689]Ayy, yeah-ayy
[02:22.711]Lost a lot of light and couldn't find me that bright side
[02:25.953]My life's a struggle when every day movin' down
[02:27.957]But I been stuck on why she claim I’m her lifeline
[02:31.193]I never know what I should do
[02:32.700]So I'ma go and pour a drink for this call, watching the walls
[02:35.454]When everything in moderation slips and it falls, dipped and involved
[02:38.699]She say she facing 21, but didn't do it
[02:40.697]That's about the time it took to notice me, so what you doin'?
[02:43.452]I got missed calls, missed texts, I ain't appreciate it
[02:45.948]Got me smokin' lonely, inebriated
[02:48.190]I had to go and beat the betas, mind becoming alpha
[02:51.440]I only smoke for that nostalgia
[02:53.199]And the reasons to live are getting stronger for me
[02:56.200]I tried to smoke a little less, the days were longer for me
[02:58.452]Never knew if I could make it out the gutter, I did that
[03:01.143]A couple broken memories, I'm never gon' miss that
[03:04.343]Real change, it always sounds so quiet
[03:08.352]You would never hear a seed push through the ground
[03:13.600]Real change, it always sounds so quiet
[03:18.594]You would never hear a seed push through the ground
[03:24.092]Real change
[03:29.607]It always sounds so quiet (Ohh)
[03:34.355]You would never hear a seed push through the ground ?”