[00:00.00]Born a cop in uniform in black vinyl gloves[00:13.88]I don't hate you for your steel-toed boots or your handcuffs[00:28.61]I'm tired of waking up every morning[00:31.15]And witnessing all of this mess[00:32.71]I swear that I'm reaching the point of me breaking[00:34.88]I'm getting too close to the edge[00:36.36]So where can I go when I'm low and I'm lost[00:38.73]Stuck in my head and depressed[00:39.86]Where can I go when there's nowhere to run[00:41.88]Cuz all of my idols are dead[00:43.37]What if it happened to friends[00:44.34]What if it happened to them?[00:45.86]What if it happened to my little brother that I barely see anymore?[00:49.49]What if it happened to him?[00:50.59]And what if it happened to me?[00:51.67]Before I was done saving lives?[00:53.07]That is the reason I'm scared[00:54.81]I'm tired of feeling this pain,[00:56.13]Tired of feeling despair[00:57.39]Tired of holding this s**t in my chest[00:58.93]I feel like I'm drowning inside of my head[01:01.35]The people that saved me from killing myself[01:03.16]Are the people I'm waking up seeing dead[01:05.17]And death is the reason I'm scared to do anything now[01:07.62]I swear I don't feel alive[01:09.25]And death is the reason I'm scared to do anything now[01:11.45]I swear I don't feel alive[01:12.76]You are the way you always were[01:20.83]You like your cruel games[01:26.28]But I am not so quick to break[01:33.64]I count my gain in blood and pain[01:41.91]You are the way you always were[01:48.75]You like your cruel games